i planed to say all these terrible things, but in the end. Im sorry.
Its like when you want someone , they dont want you. And when someone wants you , you dont want them. And when you both want eachother, something has come around and mess it up .
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I know you guys care for me. Im sorry i let you guys down , esp village vanz. Sorry VillageVanz. I dissapoint you guys, im sorry. I know you guys wanted me to change badly , i know i have did wrong. I know i shouldnt be like this. I may be naughty or what i knw i have gone too much. Okay i promise all of you that i will change , get a btr result in studies and others. Im really sorry village vanz. i knw im not this kind of person from the start. I knw i have change alot. But ppl change , im now really trying to change back. and nvr make the same mistake again. I have gone too much . ya , i amit i gone too far. I have alot to say now but i just dk how to express it out in words. I love you guys. Esp. VillageVanz , Shuqi , celine , qingwen , xinru , darren , gabriel , faizal , shafiq. ♥
Sorry.
Okay, thanks guys for bein thr for me, maybe showing attitude to u guys last time when u guys talk to me . im sorry. I knw u care for me. I care too. Its my fault that i wanna to do all this. Stop blaming linda , she is not the one that pull me in. I knw u guys dont like her. But u cant put the blame everything on her. Its not even her fault. Pls stop querraling with her. I know you guys have enuf. i had enuf too . I felt very soory for u guys sfter what you guys wrote on my wall , texted me. called me. , i can feel the care. I cried reading it, hearing it.. i did bother. Thanks for not giving up on me. Those who gave up. thanks for being thr once before. I really dont know whta to say alr. Sorry that i dissapoint u guys.
Tell me where i went wrong.
Seriously , i had enough of everything in school. Teacher want me do this do that. Not happy this not happy that. I had enough. Idw go on anymore. Suspension in hse. two days. + LRC. Freaking me out. Whole year lrc i rather quit sku. Zz. I dont whats wrong with me now I am giving up everything. FREAK. -.- when i tell you all about my problems it does not means that i complains. It means that she trust you. like me. HAHA. Donno what to say le la! ARGH! byebye!
Stop loving someone who dosent love you.
Suddenly i want to love you,i am not a kid anymore
Still,it looks like my first confession,just want to be loved by you
Suddenly i want to love you,straight forwardly confessed
Just like my bare feet.i felt relieved and freed
Feeling alive,i’m still loving you
Suddenly,i have understood,the ones i had were not love
i’m still loving you,feeling alive
You are my responsible,including your unlikeness
The unexpected love,has always broaden one’s view
it is worth to wait all along
The unexpected love,just like the river that flows to the sea
it should have been like this exist
Suddenly i want to love you,with my gentle covered
on the grass until the flower blooms,you have my word
Still,i want to be loved by you,and only you
Love is patience,love is courage
Love is an agreement,love is something it goes without saying
Love is addictive,love is unreasonable
The things that i have yet to understand
Everything can be restraint all along
The unexpected love,and love could only be love
i will wait for you
Why didnt i walk away? OH RIGHT , im a idoit.
I know how it feels like , to let go of someone you really love for a long time just for them to be happy.
Theres a story behind every person.
Theres a reason why they are that way they are.
They arent just like that beacause they want to.
Sometimes in the past created them ,
and sometimes its impossible to fix them.
Im not perfect, i make mistake , i hurt people. But when i say sorry and shows that im sad. I mean it. Im sorry. ):
I
突然想愛你.
Sunddenly, i feel like liking you. LOL. Not u but you. I no u wont like me. False hope. AHAHA. Stupid sia, posting this. LOL. Today have quite a fun day. Had friendly match with St.Marg. We won! 88-19. What a trash. ~ (: After that went ubi court to playt bball , have great laughter and fun. Today was a happy day! LOVE TODAY! (; Hmm, nvr seen u today. LOL, random. DONNO What to write le la. BYEBYE!
Nareul mandeulgo .
Bitcheoreom gijeokcheoreom = Guide me like a light
Nareul ikkeureojweoyo = like a mirical
I salmi kkeutnagi jeone = before this life ends. What i want is u in my life. (:
If you are alone standing , i can suppress my pain and tears.
All i want is you.If only u are with me , i would suffer the pain for u.
Life.
People said that i've chenge so much. Well , here's the truth. I grew up. I stopped letting people push me around all the time. I learned that you cant always be happy . I accepeted reality. Throughout my life , i have always been afraid of losing the people i love. But then , sometimes i wonder , is there anyone out there sfraid of losing me? LOL. Sometimes, its really hurt when you get hurt so much , and finally you can say you r` used to it.. Hahas.. Somethings in life we forget the things we should rmb, and rmb the things that we should have forget. Life is full of happiness and sadness. LOVE YOU GUYS WHO IS ALWAYS BY MY SIDE!
Perfect two.
Today was so damn tired. Now damn coo like going to have fever. Gastric now a days v pain. -.- Sian lah, tmr got traning again. EVERYDAY train train train! Train until i sprained my both ankle. Now a bit btr alr. FUCKER SIA, kanna scolded. Ball also not i shot out one , scold me. -.- Sian, just now at ubi corut play ball. Saw someone fall down. HAHAHA. Damn funny , dw to mention name :P hahahas. BORINGGGGGG EVERYDAYYYYY!~```
If a girl is will to go throught hell just for you, you surely shouldn't take her love for granted.
Stupid note.
Im bored, so im doing this stupid note now.
Who were you with yesterday? : Basketball team mates , nicholes, wenfeng.
What woke you up this morning? : Feel like going to the toilet? LOL.
Where are you? : Earth. LOL. Living room. (:
Is tomorrow going to be a good day? : IDK. ):
Do you like anybody? : Still consedering? LOL.
Ever thrown up in public? : NOPE. EW.
Passed out because of alcohol? : NEVER , good girl dont drink that. :P
What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW? : This stupid note. (:
What kind of home would you like? : With love and cozy home. That makes me want to go home everyday.
What do you want to be when you grow up? : I have no idea.
Where do you see yourself in 5 years? : Ehhhhh , I dont Knw.
Do you like candy necklaces? : No.
Do you listen to music every day? : DUH! Stupid queation.
Do you still go trick or treating? : DK.
What was the last thing you ate? : Mango pudding? LOL.
Are you a fast typer? : Idk. hahaha :P
Whats your favorite type of soda? : Hmm, all kind? LOL?
Have you ever moved? : I catch no balls about this queastion. LOL
Have you ever won an award? : Yeap. (;
Are you listening to music right now? : YEA, 梁静茹 - 爱你不是两三天
How long ’till your birthday? Hmm, lazy count. 7october.
When were you the saddest in your whole life? : HUH?
What time is it? : 9.31pm -.-
Do you use ebay to buy or sell? : Nah , nither.
Who makes you mad? : Anyone.
Have you ever heard a song written about you? : Dont know.
What do you do when you’re mad? : Dont know, dont care , dont wanna know.
What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad? : Shouted and scolded anyone i see.
Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? : Think so. (STUPID QUEATIONING MAKES ME MAD NOW. )
Do you swear when you’re mad? : No lah.
When was the last time you actually cried? : Hmm, (:
Ever cried yourself to sleep? : Yeap.
Do certain songs make you cry? YESH. BADLY. WTF.
What usually makes you cry? : Hmm, (:
Are you usually a happy person? : Outside yeap, inside nope.
What makes you the happiest? : Laughter , memorise, love.
Do you believe in yourself? : I dont know.
You know my name but not my story.
Just because im happy doesnt mean that must smile. And just because i smile, doesnt means that i am happy. I can put on a fake smile everyday , and shows that im happy. But u dk what am i thinking or feeling. Sometimes i hope somethings can go my way. Some people want it to happen , like me. Some people wish it would happen , like me. And some people make it happen, Its u. I have so much to say , yet i dont have the courage to say it out. Theres still bueaty in the broken , but its just hard to find..
Love pain.
Today abit siao. Suddenly shag, no appitite to eat, no mood to play bball. Got home mother cook a bowl of rice, Im not hungry , no appitite but im sad so i stuff food in my mouth so that it makes me btr a little. I cant scream, cant cry out loud, so i eat and eat , even i can swollow it, i stuff it. Whats wrong to me today? OMG. HAIZ. Donno whatto do and say alr.
You, yes you. Sorry i was not good enough, but i tried.
When we first met, i didnt know you would be so important to me. its tough when someone special starts to ignore me, but its even tougher to pretend that i dont mind.I wonder what you see in me sometimes, but confident is key. You need to look like your confident even when your not. Some people do care, but some are curious. I fall in love everytime , and i dont really fall in love alot. But when i do ,i fall hard. sometimes i wonder , why must it be him? Dear heart , why him?
I know theres a place somewhere out there for me.
The girl who seemed unbreakable , broke.
The girl who always laugh , cried.
The girl that never stopped trying , finally give up.
She dropped her fake smile as a tear rolled down her check,
and she whispered to herself , 'i cant do this anymore.
Your the straw to my berry.
One week holiday = no holiday, so many traning. monday to sat. Wtf is this. Die liao la. Competition coming to, choose until quite strong de sku, wtf , how get top four? T.T gonna jiayou! (:
Anyw hope that his alright if he have gone for his operation. Seeing him makes me happy, If his fine after his orperation i will be more happy! God bless you! We bless you! You will be alright, promise me, promise us! (: Hope to see ya soon! We miss ya (:
Love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person. Love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of. Love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.
Can mirical just happen for once? ):
Never regret. If it’s good, it’s wonderful, if it’s bad, it’s an experience.
Perfect two.
To be honest with you, i dont haven the words to make you feel btr , but i do have the arms to give you a hug , ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about , and i have a heart that aching to see you smile again.
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain and I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date
You can be the hero and I can be your side kick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'
Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need
Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry
Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two
You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth and I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages
You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together
Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need
Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry
Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two
You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know I can't live without ya
No..
I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the aisle
Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry
Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two.
It’s better to have nobody, than to have someone who is half there, or doesn’t want to be there.
Don’t underestimate the value of Doing Nothing, of just going along, listening to all the things you can’t hear, and not bothering. Haha, sometimes people are born to fall in love with each other but not being tgt. I can’t make you love me,want me,or understand me..All I can do is hope that someday you will. What a sad thing, sometimes i just feel like i should just stop thinking about it, you know , i cant.So i lied when i say it didnt hurt. AHAH, y am i so emotional? AHAHA, its random in my blog. LOL. All fake one. Ahahah, hmm. Today extra traning sibei tired but fun. Play water balloon. AHAAH. Playing basketball l\almost everyday. LOLoL. Idk what to write alr. Byebye~
Its you, not you but you.
A true friend is the only person who nvr gets tired of hearing your pointless dramas over and over again. ILOVEYOU GUYS! ♥ Seeya tmrw! haha, hmm, Sometimes i think that things aint going my way. Thats why its a new chapther, new liking, new me, new lover, new everything. Haha. Idk what to say alr. Going slp bbbbbbyyyyyeeee~
New chapter.
Life is like a giant puzzle. Everyday we struggle to find its pieces to make it into a complete picture. When i think about us, a good look can make you fall. A good cook can make you stay. I am not happy being single, but i wont be happy being taken. Because happiness comes from within not from men. So forgive me for smth that i done that make you say. Forgiveness is a promise not a feeling. When you forgive other people, you are making a promise not to use thier past sin against them.
People who accept nothing will not be dissapointed.
Girls dont dress for boys. They dress for themself, and of cause for oters. If girls dressed for boys, they would just walk around naked at all times. LOL . What you don't see with your eyes, don't witness with your mouth, so dont anyhow accuse ppl . Sometimes the things you want to know about are usually none of their business. So once in a life time thrs a land of shut the hell up.
Pyramid.
I knw life is unfair, but this is seriously ridiculors! Omg, just now kana prank, fk sia -'- tmrw gonna kill him! Make me tell all my secrets that stupid machine, -.-Today go science center quite fun la. LOL. but quite boring too. Tmrw going again .___. Sianz, the screct, omg. Hai. You give me the feeling that ppl write novels about. I think the best cures for a broken heart are time, lots of chhocolate , and a good cry. (:
Love all, trust few.
You never realize how you like someone until u saw them liking someone else. Its so hard when i know how to fix the lives of others , but i dont know how to fix mine. Sometimes , a good adviser needs a good edvise too. Like me lor ): The funny thing is, nobody knows how much its hurting me. While they could stand besid me who is completely broken and they wouldnt even knw it. Haiz.
Its not how good you are, but how good u wanna be.
Bad things are always going to happen in life. People will hurt you, but you cant use that as an excuse to hurt someone back. I wish i didnt hurt.
I wish i didnt care.
I wish it didnt happen.
I wish i was happy .
I wish i had money.
I wish i was pretty.
I wish i could sleep at night.
I wish i enjoyed my life.
I wish i you were here.
I wish you meant it.
I wish i meant it.
I wish i was different.
I wish i lived somewhere else.
I wish i didnt exist.
